11 Oct NOT MY TIMING, BUT GODS TIMING
NOT MY TIMING BUT GODS TIMING
Why now? Why start your music ministry now? You just had a baby, your not in the best shape, this is the heaviest you ever been from your baby weight. You’re spending all your finances on bills and music when it could go to traveling some more and other material things why now?? well..… BECAUSE GOD SAID SO!
How many know, that when God tells you to do something you better do it! He could care less about what you got going on, how you feel or what you think. Things should happen on Gods timing, that’s the best timing not our own. Although it may not make sense to you, be obedient and trust him! (Ecclesiastes 3:1)
It was May 2015 and my husband and I had just moved to Hawaii. It was an early morning, my husband was at work and I was spending time with God. In my devotion my Holy Spirit spoke “It’s time.” I heard it so clearly among other things, but overall it was about using my gift God gave me, singing. I told God I been singing on praise teams and choirs etc. and my Holy Spirit was basically like “that’s nice time to step it up!” At that moment a million trillion things came to mind regarding my own agenda for my life. “God we just moved to Hawaii, we haven’t even got our household goods yet from Germany… God I’m just trying to chill by the beach, relax and focus on getting a government job before my clearance expires… God you know were eventually trying to start baby making soon and you want me to do this now??”
God spoke through my Holy Spirit and said, “My timing is not your timing.” Now if it was up to me I probably would’ve started this singing process in my early 20s, but thinking back I was not spiritually or financially ready … and just not ready in general LOL. I realize that that God has timing for everything. (Acts 1:7 “He replied, “The Father alone has the authority to set those dates and times, and they are not for you to know. But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you. And you will be my witnesses, telling people about me everywhere..)
When my husband got home I told him everything that God told me, and he responded with a simple “ok.” I thought, “Hmmm it was that easy? This must be God! LOL” He then told me that I should stop pursuing getting a GS job and focus only on my music, I told him no its ok, being me I always worked since I graduated from high school, throughout college and up until then. He insisted that my music be my job, fulfilling the word God told me to do. I tried again and said “well Ill just get a part time job,” he shook his head. At that time God had blessed my husband so that I didn’t have to work and that I could be a housewife and figure out this music thing.
Never did I think that God wanted me to start a music ministry, I definitely wasn’t expecting this. For years people told me I should make a CD and become a singer etc. And I would just nod my head and smile, like thanks but no thanks, im good and comfortable singing on praise teams, choirs etc. in the background and occasional singing at weddings, and special events. I kinda just wanted to focus on married life, paying off college loans, traveling and having fun with husband! But how many know were not on this earth for our own plans and selfish desires. God has a purpose for us and thinking about own agendas and ourselves isn’t it. One of my favorite scriptures is Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the lord with all your heart; and do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.”
So since May 2015 when God gave me that word, I’ve been seeking him on the next step to take regarding singing, and have learned and done so much but still in the process. I’m excited to see what he’s going to do because I obeyed despite my feelings and thoughts toward what he told me to do. (Isaiah 55:8 “My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “ And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.”)
If God told you to do something, I would encourage you to do it! No matter your circumstances whether it’s financial or whatever God does what he wants and if it’s his timing he will make it happen for you! Just trust and stand on his word when you feel discouraged (Joshua 1:9.) Believe me with a 6 month old just starting to sleep through the night and trying to record an album, God didn’t care because he makes and made a way! Personally I feel there is no perfect time, we will always have an excuse or something going on to defer the purpose and plan God has for us…. You just have to do it…. Be obedient …… seek God regarding the purpose and plan he has for your life.